forever alone

*kaulah segalanya yang menyinari hidupku* 
ok,dak dak,tengah duk pasang lagu ni :D
Assalamulaikum orang jauh :)
harap semua duk baik baik ja nohhh,hihihi,
cakap kedah boleh dak?
tiba tiba duk tengok gambaq tok,rindu plak rasa, :')
(semua orang aku rindu!) 


ok,malam ni memang tak mood sangat sebab,tak suka benda yang duk plan tak jadi,
sat lagi dah lambat,duk merungut =.='
tak pa la,biaq ja laaa..
malas nak pikiaq,
kan best jadi budak kecik,
tak yah duk pikiaq benda benda mcm ni kan,
penah kata lagu ni kat my bestfriend,
pastu dia kata 'ingat jadi baby senang ke?susah jugak la,duk nangis tapi orang tak paham'
errrkk,betul jugak cakap kan?=.=' 
tapi really,rindu kot zaman kecik kecik dulu,
sangat =.='
kalau la boleh putar balik masa,nak zaman tadika,zaman sekolah rendah!
and the most important time zaman anak tunggal for 5 years,hihihi

I just got a few pictures of mine when I was a kid,when I looked at those pictures,

My mind was rewind everything,and honestly,I miss being a kid.

I knew when I was a kid,I always talked about being an adult is much better than being a kid,

You know,an adult can wear such a beautiful skirt,wear those handbags,and the heels!hahaha

But right now,I really wish that I can have the time machine that will keep me for being a kid all the time,and no need to grow up with this shitty things!

I really miss to sit on daddy’s hump when he drove the car,

I really miss for being FOREVER ALONE without my little brother and sister!hahaha

I really miss to have a fight with my cousins..

I really miss to stand on the stage during the assembly when I was in primary school,and my brother will looked at me,I felt so blessed with that!

I really miss to see my brother waited for me outside the class after school!

I really miss to play around with my buddy,without an appropriate cloth! -______-‘

I really miss to bully the juniors when I was in secondary school,

Now,time changed,everything changed!yess!people also changed with time J

Being a kid such a great time ever! And I know,time will go ahead,and I just have to face everything,yesss,everything..

I just miss the old days :')

banyak benda kena fikir kan?

Serdang?Bintulu?Serdang?

Allah knows everything :')

p/s : jangan judge people sebab anda pakai kopiah,songkok di kepala,siapa anda untuk menilai seseorang,kerana Allah lebih tau segalanya,jangan sebab dia tak pakai songkok,kopiah semua,tak pergi dengar ceramah,dia tak tau hukum agama,please :) 

kadang kadang ada yang berlaku sebaliknya :)

(tiada kaitan hidup dan mati )

sat sat,lepas hari Khamis ni,nak enjoy sat,nak melalak,nak buat apa lagi ntah,nak makan!

pastu hari Jumaat start misi!mama cakap struggle from now,ada reward menanti :')

sangat terkejut bila ayah cakap something harituh,kakak sayang ayah sangat,thank you ayah :')

 next post is all about to-do-list kat semenanjung!yihhaaaa! Nite People :)

*tangan duk lambai lambai* :D

kalau kalau kalau..

Assalamualaikum :)

jam dah menunjukkan pukul 1110 malam,

badan dah rasa penat,

mata dah tak larat nak bukak,

tapi gagahkan jugak taip blog,

even esaimen melambak =.='

guess what,

rasanya lagi best ada test yang banyak,

dari esaimen =.='

Time flies so fast!

pejam celik pejam celik,

dah bulan 5!

lagi 2 minggu dah bulan 6,

dah start study week =.='

and those things,

exam bla bla blaaa -_______________-'

and last sekali!

HOME SWEET HOMEEE! bebeh!

yeaaahh!balik!

40 days in counting!

yahoooooo! :D

Hari ni nak tulis pasal regret,

yes,I regret everything,

no,bukan salahkan takdir,

tapi I keep blaming myself,

I know,

zaman sekolah menengah,

zaman kejatuhan aku,

zaman kegelapan aku,

aku tak pikir masa depan aku,

aku amik remeh,

and now,

here I am,

kat Bintulu yang errrr,

sorry,aku tak boleh cakap :/

KALAU,

aku perform elok time SPM,

maybe aku tak kat sini,

maybe aku tak pi matriks 2 tahun,

aku still ingat ada sorang cakap,

'Ned,kamu bukan tak pandai,tapi kamu malas',

yes,I've ruined everything!

KALAU,

aku study,

aku dah bahagiakan mama ayah sekarang,

mama,kakak tau kakak teruk,

masa zaman sekolah menengah,

maafkan kakak ma,

kakak dah banyak susahkan mama,

until NOW ma,

kakak takkan lupa,

each single things yang mama ayah dah lakukan untuk kakak,

doakan kakak dapat balas jasa mama ayah,

kakak tau mama redha dgn keadaan kita sekarang,

keadaan kita yang jauh ni,

sebab mama pernah cakap,

'mama mana yang nak tengok anak dia duduk jauh'

mama ayah,

doakan kakak terus kuat kat sini,

kakak tau kakak banyak nangis,

kakak just nak lepaskan perasaan je ma ayah :(

THANK YOU MAMA AYAH :')

KALAU,

KALAU,

KALAU,

yang pasti kalau aku study molek dulu,

mesti aku TAKKAN DATANG BINTULU ni :(

Ada seorang hamba Allah cakap,

'sabar,ni mungkin zaman kegemilangan Ned balik,

try harder,

we can plan everything,

but Allah still be the best planner for us'

terima kasih sebab sedarkan Ned :)

Janji Allah itu pasti,

kerana sesungguhnya,

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya,"

[Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286].

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."

[Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216].

InsyaAllah,

keep the faith in Allah,

He knows everything,may Allah ease everything,

Amin :)